It's June! Summer is officially here! Time for sunshine, pool parties, family gatherings, and quality time outside. While summer is normally a time for me to slow down, it feels different this year. My last post stated that I had some big change coming and I do. After ten years at the same incredible job, I decided to take a step back and spend some time rebuilding and perhaps reinventing. Or maybe just reflecting to get back to what it means to create and prioritize my relationships with my family. So far, nothing has happened.
Now it has only been a week since summer break started for me. And traditionally I have this time off anyway. But searching the internet trying to find opportunities that might allow me to exercise creativity without sacrificing time with my little guy is a challenge. And then of course, there is actual dancing. I dance around the house constantly when a song gets stuck in my head. I find myself doing relevés and dégagés while getting a glass of water. I am sure those habits are not new, but because I know that I will not be in a studio any time soon, I notice them more. And then I get a little downhearted. I have not known a time in my life where class, teaching, and the chance to move were truly unknown. Or maybe I have and I didn't realize it... In 2020, my son was born. In January, I thought my year was off to an incredible start. I would soon learn that he would be introduced to the world through a screen. It would be months before family members would get to meet the latest edition. For some, even years. And my backyard, living room, nursery, and in-law's basement became my studio. That fall when I finally had the chance to enter a REAL dance studio, it was one of the best feelings I could have ever felt. But little did I know that a few years later, I would begin to view my personal space as a place to once again create. I know that I am not done with this artistic part of my life. The significance of it's existence is such a huge part of me and who I am as a human. But maybe reinvent is the word I am searching for. Reinvent how I perceive what I have spent the last thirty plus years doing. And then redefining how it impacts me as a wife and mother. I often struggle to be openminded to change and resist adapting to things out of my norm. But right now, I don't have much of a choice. And just like my little guy when things are not meeting his expectations, I take a breath, reassess, and see what I can do in the moment to compromise. After all it's not forever, it's just for now. May you all find your creative space to dance mommas.
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AuthorNikki Allred Boyd (Dancer, Choreographer, Mom). Archives
March 2024
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