Wow! I can't believe that March is almost over and I have not posted since the beginning of February! Time really does get away from you when you are chasing those little feet. Spring presents so many new and fun activities, but it also is a dance teachers busiest time. Recitals, shows, ballets, concerts, and more are scheduled. It is a fun, exciting, and rewarding time, but it can also be stressful to separate your life at home from your life at work.
This post is definitely not one to share how I make it work. As a matter of fact, it is quite the opposite. It is more of an admittance that I have a problem overcommitting. When I lived in New York about 15 years ago, I remember temping in Union Square at a major corporation and running down to Chelsea Studios on my lunch hour to audition for something. And then sprinting back 15 minutes late, trying to avoid my supervisor. I would call my boyfriend (now husband) and tell him how everything went and that phone conversation counted as our time together. Later that day, I would take a dance class and then head back home to possibly repeat it all the next day. My how times have changed... I have to be honest, dancers are such a unique breed. Our desire and need to rise above and excel in everything is such a large part of who we are. We never want to disappoint anyone and will definitely put ourselves last. So, what happens when you throw a husband and a child into the mix? How do you compartmentalize and make time for everything and everyone? The fact is...you don't. And no matter how hard I try, I am finding it impossible to be there for everyone and everything. On the flip side, I have serious FOMO!!! I constantly feel like if I miss out on a rehearsal, show, family event, or something for my son that I am somehow becoming obsolete. I am letting down someone. It is becoming a roll of the dice on any given day as to who the person affected will be...my colleagues, my husband, or my son? While I recognize not all dancers are going to have this conflict, I wonder how many do and don't speak up about it? It is a little embarrassing because I feel like I don't have control over my life. But then again, who does? Enjoying the journey is something that I am told often and try to remember. Just trying to soak it up because it doesn't last very long. And hopefully one day, all of this stress of trying to juggle everything will seem like a distant memory and I will be proud of how hard I tried.
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March 2024
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